ok, earlier I really damn afraid of losing love. I don’t know why, and I really don’t know what to do, and I don’t know what exactly happens to me. I feel like love said like, “hey, I’m gonna leave you. you shouldn’t take a good care about it. this is just a relationship, it’s not supposed to be forever” blah. it’s haunting me like everytime. sometimes I feel I wanna cry, but I don’t know for what reason it is.
it’s like everytime I think of break up thing. I’m so so so confused. when a relationship is going to be end, why I have to start it? and why I have to wait it until it officially end (without any undesired time), why don’t I end it NOW, or should I really have to wait THE END of this? the longer I stand with it, it’s going to hurt me more at the end. oh god help me. everybody help me. my boyfriend, please help me.
and by the way, just now a friend told me something that reminds me, “if you’re ready of having something, you have to be ready of losing it” that’s the risk of life.
